Forgetting my love…

Got up from bed late today..
Tried to think of the person I love everyday.
but failed to find anyone in my heart…
Strange how it works…
I discovered an important thing today…
I forgot how to love the person I thought I loved someday..
There’s just no one in my heart today…
Thoughtless,Motionless,without any pain I now stay…
Will it ever come back ?it may…
but now my inside feels too emotionless, I must say.

Rain and My thoughts…

It was raining so bad….

the scene was so wet…

but the beauty was so rad..!!

 

I was walking with no destination

…was trying to find the secret relation

…between heart and season.

 

Soaking wet – teeth chit-chattering,

in freezing-cold I was walking.

Nevertheless I was enjoying.

 

And you were cutting though the heavy-rain,

stopping it from empowering you in vain.

and the scene was decreasing the amount of my sane!

 

A barrier was causing disallow.

And the time was moving so slow.

I didn’t know what caused this row.

 

But I knew I wanted to be there too.

In that blockage, so nothing else can touch you.

I thought of something which most will say to be rude!!

 

The fight was on in my mind.

The inside of me started to grind!

I was expecting the almighty to be kind.

 

Confusions and compromises hard to define

is now stopping me from writing another line.

For you…

Never thought it will happen, what’s now happening.

But I guess I was just being foolish.

Like all the time,

My inside was sleeping.

Never cared about anything.

But now I understand I cared about nothing

But you.

Confusion was biting me like a snake.

Out of control,

I just can’t express my state.

Every time thinking about it makes my stomach roll,

Right Inside.

Every time when I think about it,

My inside slowly gets emptied.

I struggle to catch breath.

Foolishly try to rule out emptiness.

Sensation refreshes my feeling.

But it fails to fix a spot in my heart.

I have nothing to do, so I cry.

When they ask me about my problem, I lie

telling them my eye just caught some dirt.

A sea of ink and papers of the whole earth

Will not be enough to express my love.

I don’t know how to tell

There is just no bell

ringing in my head right now.

I discovered you slowly.

I studied complexity and simplicity steadily

I know now, how little I know about you

But that’s more than enough for me

for sure.

Kept yourself inside the shell of intelligence

Maybe I don’t have enough of your essence.

But I believe I have love full of innocence

And remain assured

That I will never run out of it.

You can create a new universe with the particles of my love,

After even doing that my love will not run out.

I give you all the time

To make a decision,

Take your time,

Your answer is my life.

So please don’t rush in making decisions.

Think about it , my love, my life….

I’ll wait

Even till the last of my breath

If you like.

You know me perfectly,

And you are the perfect for me.

I’ve nothing more to say ,

My love, life, now fully lay

In you hands.

Where I believe it’s safe.

Just don’t let my thoughts down.

At last, I’ll just say some simple words,

“I love you with love of the whole wide universe.”

Leap of faith…

I kept waiting for you to come

kept holding my breath for something new for a change

but the rainbow ,although beautiful, has the same colors every time…

i see the stars shine… but don’t know whether its good or bad..

I just kept waiting anyway…waiting for you to finally realize…

you keep teasing me.. hiding from me…

what do you have there to unveil beautiful?

my life has been like this since i knew you..

since i feel your heart in me..

since i lost myself in your eyes..

and rain keeps pouring anyway..

i don’t know why the nature cries..

does it want to replace my tears ?

or does it simply want to wash it away ?

may be I should trust in her and take a leap of faith…..

Ripping Apart my Internal System Administration…..

 

I thought I’ve given this up for good

But how wrong was I

You were the most beautiful, my eyes ever looked

I’ve seen many, but my eye didn’t lie

 

The first glimpse of you took my breath away

I went crazy, started acting stupid. And I didn’t know what to say.

My mind was in complete blackout

It is only you who can create such cloud

Love is something one can only feel.

But in the flood of love I am being killed.

 

You make this world worth living

Everything seems worthless without you

I know it’s a crazy thing to believe in,

that you are present in my every pleasant dream. But it’s true

 

The more I knew about you. The more I loved you.

I don’t know many things about you. But I know enough to.

 

I like the way you speak, the way you move.

I like the way you smile, that fills the earth with groove.

 

I like everything about you.

Whether it’s old fashioned

whether it’s something completely new.

 

My love is made of truth.

It’s developed with firm trust.

I don’t know what to tell

And I don’t want to rush.

Maybe some people will describe it as a teenager’s crush.

But my love is pure. It’s not a crush.

Still if they do that, it’ll be nothing but harsh.

 

Life is very complex.

Life’s problems are huge.

To make mine’s simple

I need you.

 

Sorry for this long poem

But this is not all.

To express my feeling fully

I’ll need a big call.

So at last, tell me sweet,

(‘Sweet’ word is not enough to describe.

I really need to improve my vocabulary.

I really need to strive.)

Will you be mine, my love of life?

I’ll love you all the time, even if it costs my life.

Anger Fueled Fire…..

Tried to find bliss elsewhere…
Tried to forget everything I thought about you…
Cant seem to find a way to do that…
Clouded my judgment,you have…
At the end of the day I came back to my self-righteousness.
Trying hard not to lose that in that process.
You saw the friendly me,the helpful me.
You didn’t know what danger I can produce…
You made my heart burn in an invisible fire…
Now my heart burns in anger, disgust…
I see you everyday… Fueling the fire further…
I now Hate you, more than anything else….
The hatred burns my whole body in a jet-fuel-induced flame..
You refused to be mine..
I wanted to find peace in my painful life.
You made my world a worse than it was before..
And the reason was that I wasn’t boyfriend material ?
A lot of time has past since I last cried…
but the tears made me stronger.
I can now think clearer..
You need to feel my anger..
I’ll make sure you do..
You made fun of my innocent love..
I’ll make sure that chaos takes your life..

 

//Fictitious//

Sight is Important…

I wrote this poem for a very special friend of mine on her birthday. I felt like sharing it with everyone

At the time of writing this, we were only cell-phone-buddies

Sight is important,
So is light.
but u were so bright,
that it blinded my sight,
I wonder where you get so much light…
you are still invisible to my eyes,
but that’s good, because it often lies.
And a blind men enjoys more sense….
because external events disappear like evanesence.
Yet you were invisible.
But not to my heart.
you made my inside so numb … so inert…
this day was the start for you..
And enlightened my atmosphear too ..
With the wish that my sight may soon observe you…
I wish Happy birthday to you.

Sorrow..

Sorrow

I woke up in the morning,

Watched the sun peeking through my tattered roof.

I knew it was laughing at me,

But was pretending to show sympathy, oh, uh!

The whole day it watched me,

Working for my livelihood.

And making me sweat,

Taking me a under a shaded hood.

After the sun has gone, the moon came

to take his place,

without that blaze.

Shining in the sky

Like a great hope.

I look forward to a day,

where a new sun will rise.

Which will have the blaze of the sun,

which exists now.

But will have heart of the dearest moon.

But I wonder how!

But I can feel the coming of the new light.

Just few blocks away, shining bright.

This sun will be replaced

By the new one’s blaze.

And so will be the sorrow,

Of which I sing song.